I have been a relationship for 15.5 years with someone who I now realize that I detest. You might ask why I stayed, and my answer is that I thought that I was in love at that time. Now I know it was not that I was in love, I was in love with the thought of being in love. Before I met him I was married to a man who I thought was boring, but as it turned out he was the most thoughtful and caring man and the father of my son. I got divorced because I wanted more excitement in my life I found it for a while, then it fizzled after a few months. I put up with “baby mama drama” all in the name of love. I put up with him telling me that women are out to eff up men, still I stayed. I put up with let’s stay in tonight because “I want you all to myself” I baby sat with kids that was told that I am a witch and they should not eat anything I offered them. Then I got pregnant. I was pregnant with twins, with all the stress of the pregnancy I lost my daughter and had a son. Still I stayed. I know he was cheating, yet I stayed. I was in the house with the child so he know where I was at all times, I was unemployed and needed him, I had no place to stay, so I stayed. After my son turned nine months I found a job. I was a case worker, I worked with women in domestic situations. I was able to counsel them about their situation but yet I stayed when I was in practically the same position. I kept telling myself that my situation was not that bad. To be continued………

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